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Sometimes I wonder if I only think people can't see how awkward I can be.
Sometimes people think I'm smarter than I am so they tell me "smart" things and I don't understand what they're talking about but I fake it.
Sometimes I wonder if all my intelligence is actually just fake intelligence.
Sometimes, during a conversation with someone I'm not comfortable with, my brain feels like a multi-lane highway and like shifting to higher gears I fire out conversation topic after conversation topic to gain control of the conversation so the other person thinks I'm really engaged while another part of my brain is scootering alongside in another lane seeking the segue to swerve into the conversation, carjack me and then exit the freeway safely.
Sometimes I believe I am a very good actor but sometimes I wonder if people I'm not really comfortable with just think I'm an asshole.
Sometimes I wonder why there are people in my life that I've known for years and years that I am still not comfortable with.