Saturday, October 8, 2011

Sometimes

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Sometimes I wonder why people can't see how awkward I can be.

Sometimes I wonder if I only think people can't see how awkward I can be.

Sometimes people think I'm smarter than I am so they tell me "smart" things and I don't understand what they're talking about but I fake it.

Sometimes I wonder if all my intelligence is actually just fake intelligence.

Sometimes, during a conversation with someone I'm not comfortable with, my brain feels like a multi-lane highway and like shifting to higher gears I fire out conversation topic after conversation topic to gain control of the conversation so the other person thinks I'm really engaged while another part of my brain is scootering alongside in another lane seeking the segue to swerve into the conversation, carjack me and then exit the freeway safely.

Sometimes I believe I am a very good actor but sometimes I wonder if people I'm not really comfortable with just think I'm an asshole.

Sometimes I wonder why there are people in my life that I've known for years and years that I am still not comfortable with.

23 comments:

Pickleope said...

I think this does an incredible job of crystallizing the insecurities we all feel. Very well written. This is poetry. Tragic, beautiful, painful poetry.

Windsmoke. said...

Don't ya just hate it when people babble on incoherently :-).

Antares Cryptos said...

Sometimes I wonder why you think you aren't what others think you are.

oceangirl said...

Sometimes you wonder if the crow knows who you are, does he care who I am.

Mel said...

Do you ever wonder if we're all just thinking those same thoughts and faking our way through half of our life? Yeah, me neither...

SherilinR said...

i've found that the more uncomfortable i am with someone, the more i talk. and not just talk, but babble at a rapid clip while barely taking in enough air to keep myself upright. it's an affliction. i think it means i want them to say nothing to me, so i give them no chance by filling the air with blabbery bullshit so they can't talk.

karensomethingorother said...

sometimes I wonder if you and I are twins, separated at birth :) :) :)

Rubye Jack said...

There is no easy way to say this, but I love this post. I think I am a great actor who occasionally knows how to fake it but who doesn't really care enough to do so.

Munk said...

Your not fooling anybody with this post.

Charlie Pulsipher said...

Sometimes I want to crawl into a shrub and hide there for a while away from everyone and everything. I think I'll take an old baseball with me so, when a neighbor catches me crawling out, I can hold it up and say, "I got it!" and they won't suspect how odd and awkward I really am.

Alittlesprite said...

I find it strange that different people see us differently. Do we actually know our true selves?
I think you are greater than you think you are.

Vinny C said...

Sometimes I read a post that reminds me that I'm not the only one. Then I can relax a little.

Shana said...

Interesting post. And interesting comments.
I think everyone feels this way at times!!

Al Penwasser said...

Sometimes I wonder if I'll really get in trouble if I remove the "Do Not Remove Under Penalty of Law" tag from a pillow.
So, you see, comparatively speaking, you're doing great.

Angela@BeggingTheAnswer said...

Good post! It's kind of crazy to think how our insecurities affect the way we interact with others.

Core Contrarian said...

You make me think.

Teachinfourth said...

I agree with several of these...

Nubian said...

Ditto Antares Cryptos and Vinny C

Twisted Scottish Bastard said...

Don't worry.
It's perfectly normal situational paranoia.
You really know, deep down, that you're better than everyone else, and that they will always try and drag you down.

Just stay away from powerful handguns that can be easily concealed, and you'll be OK.

Laoch of Chicago said...

Framing is so important.

Michael said...

Do you ever wonder if everyone else is just like you?

Alistair said...

Take the bag off your head and you'll feel better straight away dbs........

Alternatively - take the bag off your head and put it on the head of someone your not comfortable with.

{Feelings of superiority can help amazingly}

Chelle said...

I don't get it. Just kidding. Nobody I know thinks you're an asshole... Except that one guy....

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